Spring Thoughts

Everything looks better to me in spring.


May is a busy month here. On Thursday afternoons, all three kids have activities, two of them simultaneously. Something will have to give the week my husband is away. But no matter, because guess what? I volunteered to help coach my daughter’s soccer team. I have no experience with soccer, but the kids are four years old. I can herd. But the really great thing? When I considered volunteering, I was mainly worried about juggling it while I was solo parenting. I never even thought, Can I physically do this?

That is huge. I couldn’t have run around a soccer field for an hour at a time a year ago, or even six months ago. I was diagnosed with Lyme Disease in December of 2011, but I suspect I became infected the previous September. Last January I couldn’t stand up for more than ten minutes without fatigue and extreme pain. Last February I set myself the goal of slowly working up to the 2 1/2 mile neighborhood walk I’d done without a thought the previous fall. As I headed into last spring, physical recovery was slow, but steady, but even just six months ago, I couldn’t sleep without waking from pain. The realization that I now get through most days with nothing more than the usual twinges of an almost-40-year-old body fills me with thankfulness.

New sneakers!

New sneakers!

I did buy some new sneakers, since I’ve had my current pair since Idon’tknowwhen and they certainly never had any support to begin with. I wore them today while the younger kids and I walked through the neighborhood, and wore them again to run around a field with a gaggle of four-year-olds, and nothing hurts tonight. I have energy to follow through on ideas–this, too, is amazing. There were months when I’d have a thought of getting up to do something, and next thing I knew, I was waking up from another nap.

It is spring here.

Collecting tadpoles during a nature program.

Collecting tadpoles during a nature program.

It is spring, and I am not in pain. It is spring, and the sun is shining, and no matter what else is going on in my life, I am grateful for the sunshine and the ability to coach my daughter’s soccer team and walk without pain with my kids. I am grateful for fiddleheads and purple flowers and tadpoles and birdsong.

Everything looks better in spring.

12 thoughts on “Spring Thoughts

  1. bells

    This is great. i can always feel the weight of the world lift a little from you when the snow thaws. Everything about you sounds a bit brighter.

    As for the strength you’re feeling – brilliant. You’ve come a long way.

    I reckon I’d sign up for four year old soccer too. Alice’s sister plays and she’s been playing since she was that age. I think Alice should follow suit. A bunch of 4yo girls running around after a ball, playing a game I know nothing about would be fun.

  2. Dawn Suzette

    This is wonderful Amy!
    When you mentioned herding the soccer kiddos the other day I had no idea just what that meant in your exciting & amazing recovery!

    1. amy Post author

      Thanks Dawn. It’s been so slow and steady that truly, it feels like a revelation to not be in pain most of the time, and to not be exhausted. It’s been very much a baby-step journey; it’s looking back that I can see how far I’ve come. And now, of course, it’s tick season again and I have to balance my need to be outdoors with my very real and understandable fear of getting Lyme again.

  3. underthebigbluesky

    Glad you are doing better. My sister has Lyme’s too and it is a terrible thing.

    Happy things are looking up and you are doing the things you want to do.

    Thank goodness for Spring, I thought winter was never going to end.

    Happy Weekend!

    1. amy Post author

      Happy weekend to you, too! And yes, thank goodness for spring. It’s like a balm, and beach season isn’t too far behind. ๐Ÿ™‚

  4. Carolyn

    Amy, I’m so happy to hear that you have regained your strength…your life! I know it’s been a rough journey, chronic pain is awful to live with and I’m glad you’re no longer suffering like you were. Enjoy the spring, the sunshine, the kids, the soccer.

    Wonder if we could keep ourselves safe with Frontline, like we do our pets? :o)

    1. amy Post author

      That would be nice! I’ve spent so long outdoors in tick habitat–since college–that I’m astonished this is my first infection. I’d begun to think I must be immune. Alas, no.

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